People, like, change over time.
They change over time living constantly in, like…
Like, anguish and anger and whatever — you change who you are, you know?
Anguish and anger.
Whatever it is, it changes you.
Because it’s been so long being like that, you really forget —
like, you forget what it’s like to just be… without that stuff.

But all of that can come back. You can, like, come back.
That stuff can return.
That’s what I did.

And while I was that messed-up person…
I got painted that way — because she painted me that way, you see?
When we were both here.
And that’s what people don’t get.
They just see the surface.
They see someone this big
hitting someone that small.
Or someone that small hitting someone this big — you get it?
She’s just a star.

But yeah. I’ll never forgive myself.

But what you’re asking is — are we like that?
Like I said, there’s no excuse.
No man should ever lay a hand on a woman.
But it’s not meant to be told the way she tells it.

And I don’t think I’ll talk much more about this, but it’s like that Egg Stereo thing I told you.
I’m not gonna give a fuck to anyone.

It fucks me up, bro.
I could probably be way more chill about all that shit.
Exactly.
These are pathological things, okay?
I’m not being dramatic to be a dick, you know?

So you were…
I’m not doing this to hurt anyone, you know?
I’m not doing this to hurt.
I’m not.

I know, like, I hear you.
And if I were the type to make a scene, like,
get all affected by your emotion, like,
PTSD-style, in a negative way —
I wouldn’t even be here talking to you.

You know?
I wouldn’t have stayed here listening.
I wouldn’t have spent half an hour
listening to you drop your 20 things
without saying a word, without being able to
share my pain too.
To also share with you my pain.
That I feel too.

The pain you feel, like, being excluded —
the first thing you said, the explosion —
feeling like you’re the black sheep, nobody likes you,
everyone whispers about you
in a group where you’re supposed to belong.

In some outside group, exactly.
I had to learn to not give a fuck about that.
Exactly — I felt that too.

But I forgave myself for that paranoia.
The dogs were making me think people were looking at me that way.

A group of people.
A big-ass group.
That were, like, a lot of my friends — people I met through her.

So imagine —
so many people you liked, so many connections,
looking at you like you’re this kind of person.

Now you’re like a little egg, my brother.
I’ll try not to edit.
It’s pretty much in the name.
I’ll try not to make it about me, because there’s…

I can’t believe it happened.
Channeling. Another healer. Look, cool.

And now you’ll have to feel…
Now you’ll have to feel what I’m sending you.

You’re being, like…
Oh my God.
Oh my God.

Yeah. I’m focused on all the pain you sent me.
Now I’m going to the other side. Wait, you good?
Whoa, your heart, wow. Okay.
I think it’s the other side.
That side — the right one.